27.03.2012

I should say here I am from non-brahmin community whereas my husband was a Brahmin.I am not aware of these rituals. On the third day of his death I could see a vision between my eyebrows that curd rice along with Thughaiyal(It is hot chillies & coconut paste) is there on a plantain leaf & my mouth feels watery. Immediately I thought perhaps my husband asks for curd rice & thughaiyal. So I should do it for him.But later I learned that on 12^th day there is a ritual in which a Brahmin carries home curd rice & thughaiyal.

In between I need to tell about another vision. I had a small desire to wear mangalsutra if it comes direct from Lord. Once in dream I had the vision of Lord holding the mangalsutra & he asks me…Whether I should bless you in a traditional way or in the way of divine love now you live that is not bound by tradition. I should say always my heart reconciles the world with the Lord. Beauty of tradition I love but dry rituals I am not for it. I asked for the both the positive combined blessing

On 20^th March 2012, I had a vision between my eyebrow. I could see the face of my husband & I could see the bones and little blood with flesh on cheeks & his mouth holding Pinda. Water is poured above it which he consumes & the seesame seeds were scattered all over the face.

When I had the above vision I saw in calendar that Amavasya (No moon day)is nearing .Its on 22^nd.

All the rituals of death were made by my brother in law & my son is not entitled till wearing sacred thread.

You know after this I had a dilemma should a Brahmin priest should do it or we with loveful heart do it.

Because of commercialization of the rituals my heart was in a dilemma. I prayed to the lord. As your feminine part I keep this Pinda…. I placed three pindas I do not know how many to place even. I topped it with seesame seeds & I poured water on it. I prayed the lord…if it is accepted I should get a vision & if not from next time I will do it by engaging a Brahmin priest.

The pindas were eaten by crow. One pinda is almost fully gone.

While lying down at night I had the vision between my brows. A mouth opens like a shadow & single seesame seeds like rain drops swiftly drift into it. I first thought it is my husband’s mouth. But I noted a clear difference. I concentrated more….to my wonder the lips are so beautifully curved lips of child Krishna…..!

See it is sure everything is HE. We cling on to dry rituals. But soulful worship at any form is enough for the Lord..! Place the heart….that is the magnetic way to attract the Lord. No rituals or scriptures could define or bind HIM. HE is above all!

HOLI

08.03.2012

Today is a blessed day. Every day is so but receptivity we miss amidst our busy schedule.

You know today is HOLI festivel. In south it is not celebrated much, even though my heart conversed with the Lord let me see in which colour you are going to wish me today…!

You know no one could ever override the Lord in love.

While driving my two wheeler I noticed a car in front of me . I didn’t notice at first but it was all the way before my vehicle when I saw the words”Nee aaseervathamai irruppai”. Meaning “you will be a blessed one….!”. You know down below was the picture of interlocking circles with rainbow colours representing colourful HOLI

I am reproducing a sample of those seven circles with VIBGYOR colour at best I could…!

HIS ways are so…great .Everything is his tool of expression & HE showers colorful BLESSINGS for us on the Eternal space…!

The dissection of mind from heart ends up in keeping real people apart. Mind is smart in deluding leading to self destruction hiding the truth behind! The wholesome effect & foresight is lost without reconciliation of both.

The web of masks created floats around the soul making it sink in ignorance. As a silent observer HE watches the seeds of maya sprouting growing & decaying in itself! At times HE shakes hand with the best actors of the play. Good or bad is no matter!

Pity on people who speak a lot of sweet words without essence...they are caught into their own web like a spider...they know not....!.
Live with people like a jack fruit they know not formal sweet words...but their heart extends to all with sincerity...they are the seeds of heaven!

Beware...! Each and every thought is observed....what WE breathe is the breath of the Lord!

So much of intelligence and beauty springs up even in a single creation in this world which our human minds could not even grasp a glimpse of it!.

Revere the magnanimity of the Universe....in which our mind floats like a miniscule particle...!

Without Supreme intelligent CREATOR...how come this intelligent creation be.. ?

Surrender with gratitude....!

True ! MAN can become GOD... like a wave in the Sea!

A wave could fully merge with the sea & express the quality of the Sea...!

But without SEA a wave cannot be...!

Today is the day of Diwali....No celebration this year...Morning I was in such a mood that nothing would make me cheerful. Such a dejection which I was in...that my heart was not up to the joy of festivel...! Nothing could make my heart joyful...not to say it is pulling me down to the lost glory.

See I was lamenting to the Lord...see even to worship you I am not ready with my whole heart...! Why this lazy & ignorant downward pull? Atleast if you send me some flowers I could be cheerful!

See how the Lord again & again affirms his love. I heard a knock at the door. A small boy whom the flower selling lady has sent. He was standing there with three bunches of golden chrysanthemum flowers which was not a common flower sold on road (see this is the first time I get these flowers) & two changing roses(It is a hibiscus variety that changes it colour from white to pink). My heart was in joy Oh! Lord you had sent me your eternal love with it! Only I am not receptive & again & again fall down in heart. I could feel the embrace of grace & touch of divine love day to day!

This has happened in last Navrathri.Myself & my friend were heartily doing Llitha Sahasranama archana with kumkum . My heart was in deep prayer ...and a thought arose...mother so many years we are celebrating you.Will you show your tangible presence once ...? my heart was begging...! I was thinking some form atleast I could see in the kumkum...as a tangible presence of Goddess.

But to my wonder the when I opened the prasad to offer to the Goddess we witnessed a blessing hand. See there were no kids there...and none of our hands could go inside the vessel fully since it was small. Sure manifestation of the blessing hands of Mother....We were carried with bliss...& gratitude...! Miraculous is the Love of Lord!