As though I am in the lap of the Lord...the deep pain created due to the death of my husband...do not wither away so easily...! You know last sunday I was so upset that I cried to the Lord...what is happening and what do you will to do through me...! The surrender to say easily...but if the thorn pricks we cannot smile... which is true indeed! I could feel the pain of millions of souls in despair.

Sunday evening when I was just switching over channels in TV I ended up with the live telecast of Sadhguru Jaggi Vasudev's programme. It is as though I felt he spoke for me alone. It answered all the queries raised within me. He touched the topic of death...and when he said that a person dying young...his soul is vibrant for 48 days that we could touch it to infuse divine ananda of atleast one drop ,my soul longed to do it for my husband...! I meditated and offered prayers for him.

Love is such that I feel it should give indepth peace at the soul level. So it is only the Mahatmas who love soulfully. We were not aware of their greatness which works at the subtle level. Rever the Yogi's, Jnani's and saints but for them this world is unable to withstand. They balance the whole nature.