What we are now is created by us either consciously or unconsciously through millions of years of evolution! Nature has the tremendous power to supply our genuine wishes. But alas! We seek externally in vain through the strong walls of mind created blocks....breaking our heads! Dive deep to realise the divine within which is the only way to solution! Otherwise no option is left in our hands when the nature pulls us from within through death! Unconsciously we go....!

Today is a blissful day...I woke up with the vibrating slokas from within...Sri Rama Rama Ramethi ....from Vishnu Sahasranama three times( It has been said reciting this sloka alone gives the benefit of reciting Sahasranama) & Kayenavacha manasendriyaiva...Narayanayethi samarpayami( meaning ..I surrender everything to Sri Narayana)

I was wondering why this sloka flow within me. I woke up to see the calender if it is a special day...! Yes. it is so...It is Sarva Vaishnava Ekadasi as it is written in the calender. So full of love I bought cute little orange roses and tied it along with Krishna Tulsi and carried it to the Lord at Tirupathi Devasthanam Temple near my office. So beautifully it decorated the chest of the Lord carrying my love.

It is not new to me. It happens often that if some special day is there lord reminds me of it...! Such is the Love of Lord which carries his devotees who has surrendered their all at His Feet.
I realise truly some inner science has been invented by our Rishis and Yogis which we miss amidst the shallow life we live now.

Unless and until I experience myself I never believe blindly in any external rituals.If I feel it in every cells of my being I am for it. Otherwise not.If I am unable to place my heart I never worship merely mechanically.

And one more incident...yesterday while driving vehicle I was just wondering how skitting of wheel would be...because I never experienced it...!Then immediately a thought came over...If it happens you will fall....so don't think like a crack...!

Today while crossing Panagal Park...,small small stones were laid on the turning which really made my vehicle skit...for a second my heartbeat was gone with fear overlapping...but fortunately I didn't fall down..! Thank God! When I lifted my eyes from the road I saw the words... Bible words... "Naan vun munnae chentu konalanavaigalai chevvai cheivaen"...meaning I will go before you and make good all cranky things on the way...!(very bad translation I feel!)
It is an experience of Divine Love which responds beautifully...which I experience day to day...!

DIVINE OCEAN

You wanted to…teach me
More and more tough…lessons!

You came to me as a colleague
Full of jealous within….!
You discouraged….me…
With negative words….!

I was struggling
Within myself….
To be one with you….!

You spoke very softly
Like honey outside…!
But carrying….
Vengeance within….!

Cleverly you executed
Things to your favour
Making people
Believe falsehood…!

I could observe you….
Your face shrinking….
At any good happening to me….!

You projected…..
As though you are
Close to me....
But truly you were….
Far…far…away from me…!

This is something new…
Which I never faced before….!
Even the most
Self-centered souls….
Dissolve in Thine Love…!

I found…truth…..
To be pushed last….
And ridiculed...by people around….!

I searched where I went wrong…
Carrying Thee in my heart…!
I had to fight a lot…within…
To retain your liveliness….!

How come…..
You are in jealous with
Your own soul…..???
I cried within….!

You answered….

My child…
You are swimming hard
To overcome
The waves of jealous…
Repeating itself…..!
You will be tired...soon
Leave it…..

DIVE DEEP…!
YOU WILL SEE THE TREASURES OF
THE OCEANIC LOVE AWAITING YOU…..!

TRANSFER LOVE WITH DIGNITY AND NOT AS AN ALM! THE VERY CREATION OF YOU AND ME ARISE FROM PROFOUND LOVE OF GOD IN FORGETTING HIS ETERNAL SELF TO GIVE LIFE TO OUR SOULS TO ENACT AN ETERNAL PLAY!

While driving a vehicle, in the beginning speedometer is required.But once we know how to drive, it is just an indicator with no meaning attached.Same with life, when we realise the spontaneous flow of creative force, all external definitions stand merely as an indicator & holding on stil... only to the rules or ideals blindly will make life struck to it.